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Laa ta aamin nin wa law kaana ninkaaga- bom!
I feel you, keep taking your meds and keep going to your therapist. Check your blood, you probably have a vitamin d deficit, it can influence your mental health. Most importantly work on your relationship with Allah swt, only He can help you. Pray your 5 prayers, do lots of dua, vent to him. Cry to him. He is the All-Hearer and the All-Seer, He knows your suffering and broken and wants you to come back to Him. It‘s a blessing in disguise, wallahi I know from experience. May Allah give you shifa and may He mend your broken heart. May He strengthen you and guide you, protect and bless you. Allah says in the Qur‘an:
“And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided.“- Qur‘an [2:186]
“Or do you think that you will enter Paradise while such [trial] has not yet come to you as came to those who passed on before you? They were touched by poverty and hardship and were shaken until [even their] messenger and those who believed with him said,"When is the help of Allah ?" Unquestionably, the help of Allah is near.“- Qur‘an [2:214]
I‘d recommend listening to podcasts of sheikh yasir qadhi, sheikh nouman ali khan and yasmin mogahed. Her book reclaim your heart is very good. And don‘t be sad by aid al qarni. Stay strong sister, you will get through this, with hardships comes ease, look for the ease in your hardships
“And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided.“- Qur‘an [2:186]
“Or do you think that you will enter Paradise while such [trial] has not yet come to you as came to those who passed on before you? They were touched by poverty and hardship and were shaken until [even their] messenger and those who believed with him said,"When is the help of Allah ?" Unquestionably, the help of Allah is near.“- Qur‘an [2:214]
I‘d recommend listening to podcasts of sheikh yasir qadhi, sheikh nouman ali khan and yasmin mogahed. Her book reclaim your heart is very good. And don‘t be sad by aid al qarni. Stay strong sister, you will get through this, with hardships comes ease, look for the ease in your hardships