Iām not religious Iāve tried to force it for so long it didnāt work. If I could come back to Islam I would but itās not there in my heart. I still wear hijab and abaya cause my parents are crazy. But this Ramadan I havenāt fasted for one day and havenāt prayed in like 4 years and I havenāt been to taraweeh once since 2020
Anyways my parents are forcing me to sleep in the masjid tonight and to go to taraweeh with them and Iām scared. I canāt lie and say Iām on my period again and I canāt use university excuse because Iām on spring break.
Idk why there is just this fear in me. Like I donāt want to do it like why is a gaal like me going to the masjid it just feels disrespectful.
Any advice for me? Besides say noā¦My mom is gonna be praying next to me so I know I wonāt be able to just sit in the back all of taraweeh.
Canāt believe Iām 20 and still being pushed around by my parents like this

Anyways my parents are forcing me to sleep in the masjid tonight and to go to taraweeh with them and Iām scared. I canāt lie and say Iām on my period again and I canāt use university excuse because Iām on spring break.
Idk why there is just this fear in me. Like I donāt want to do it like why is a gaal like me going to the masjid it just feels disrespectful.
Any advice for me? Besides say noā¦My mom is gonna be praying next to me so I know I wonāt be able to just sit in the back all of taraweeh.
Canāt believe Iām 20 and still being pushed around by my parents like this


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