GodKnowsBest
Somaliweyn Unionist
This is the first time since my first break up that I've really just wanted to take a break from men.
I've come to the point where I've seen them as extremely disposable and I don't see the point in throwing my life away for a single man despite only wanting entertainment from them. It used to be just chasing them for their looks, then for the fluttery feeling in my stomach, then the comfort of having a person I can share anything with, then senselessly chasing that exhilarating feeling that I'll only be able to experience with marriage.
The older I get the more I realize that I'll only be sharing more with men I date the older I get to the point where I'll be giving away my first kiss, my first held hand, my first night to a man I won't marry. I'm going to stop myself while I still can, at a point where I'm not disgusted by myself, and at a point where I haven't dug myself too deep.
It'll be hard because I haven't had a mind fresh from men in years but it's worth it.
I've come to the point where I've seen them as extremely disposable and I don't see the point in throwing my life away for a single man despite only wanting entertainment from them. It used to be just chasing them for their looks, then for the fluttery feeling in my stomach, then the comfort of having a person I can share anything with, then senselessly chasing that exhilarating feeling that I'll only be able to experience with marriage.
The older I get the more I realize that I'll only be sharing more with men I date the older I get to the point where I'll be giving away my first kiss, my first held hand, my first night to a man I won't marry. I'm going to stop myself while I still can, at a point where I'm not disgusted by myself, and at a point where I haven't dug myself too deep.
It'll be hard because I haven't had a mind fresh from men in years but it's worth it.