I know but it makes it really hard for me to enjoy life these days. I sometimes wonder if my fear for overly masculine men comes from Trauma I might have faced when I was younger. It’s like a subconscious reaction that I’ve had since I was a toddler.Your gonna have to talk to your theropist about this one saxiib if its that bad, but if its just a prefrence i dont see anything wrong about it. Dont mind the people in the comments telling you your subconsciously gay for women. feminine men are still men in the end of the day.