I honestly have no words. I wish you well and good therapy. Salam bro.
I have no need for therapy. Did one compulsory session and the therapist said I'm completely normal just also a psychopath.
Seems like I'm what they call a high functioning psychopath because I gained a very high level of self control.
Professor Joseph Newman,
“Psychopaths are not driven by the things that lead to their behavior. It’s not that they’re driven to be especially violent or aggressive, it’s not like they’re so motivated to get money that they're going to after it in that way, it’s not like they’re so turned on by sexual things that they do things that are sexually inappropriate,”
and he went on and on that, and he explicitly notes, that
“if anything their drive towards those goals, maybe less that those of other people. The only thing is when they have a whim, just a thought that it might interesting to try this or do this, they are more likely to act on it. So he talks about very weak urges breaking through even weaker restraints being a hallmark of psychopathy”.