Salam sisters
I know this group is very well judgmental and I'm ready to be judged.
I'm feeling guilt and need to confess it. This is the only I'm able to or else I'll ruin my life. I am happily married and love my husband deeply. I might not love him as much because I have hurt him without him knowing. My husband and I have been married for 3 years and it is beautiful. Everything is beautiful just not our sex life. I'm not sure if he doesn't know how to work in the bedroom but I am not satisfied at all. A few months ago a new neighbor moved upstairs. He is this handsome, tall, dark chocolate man. You can start judging now.. our neighbor finds me attractive and would say a few things here and there. I am a very flirty person and our conversation got sexually heated one day. I invited him over for no reason because I am stupid. I am wrong and stupid but I could not control myself. He came in and had tea but my body was calling for him and I gave him the okay sign to sleep with me. Mind you he is not only attractive but his package is just as I imagined. I've never had sex like before in my life and it felt like a ferrytale to have something that nice in me. I may be provocative but he made me . Not only that but because it was so good I told him to finish in me. I am on birth control and such.. but sisters this has been going on for months. The guy know I'm married and finds it sexy that he can sneak by to give me some. I crave the man more than my husband. One night my husband came home early and good thing my husband calls ahead of time to tell me he is on his way home so that I "prepare" myself. I didn't shower from having sex with the guy and my husband wanted to have sex with me and I couldn't say no. I feel dirty, disgusting and I know I am going to hell, but I love it. I love having sex with my neighbor and I don't think it will stop. Now, I need advice, what do I do? I want to stop but my lady parts won't. This is disgusting but it is true. I am baffled but I mean what advice do you have for me? I can not divorce my husband because there is no way. And I don't know how to stop
Sisters please help me. I know you will judge me but help me first
I know this group is very well judgmental and I'm ready to be judged.
I'm feeling guilt and need to confess it. This is the only I'm able to or else I'll ruin my life. I am happily married and love my husband deeply. I might not love him as much because I have hurt him without him knowing. My husband and I have been married for 3 years and it is beautiful. Everything is beautiful just not our sex life. I'm not sure if he doesn't know how to work in the bedroom but I am not satisfied at all. A few months ago a new neighbor moved upstairs. He is this handsome, tall, dark chocolate man. You can start judging now.. our neighbor finds me attractive and would say a few things here and there. I am a very flirty person and our conversation got sexually heated one day. I invited him over for no reason because I am stupid. I am wrong and stupid but I could not control myself. He came in and had tea but my body was calling for him and I gave him the okay sign to sleep with me. Mind you he is not only attractive but his package is just as I imagined. I've never had sex like before in my life and it felt like a ferrytale to have something that nice in me. I may be provocative but he made me . Not only that but because it was so good I told him to finish in me. I am on birth control and such.. but sisters this has been going on for months. The guy know I'm married and finds it sexy that he can sneak by to give me some. I crave the man more than my husband. One night my husband came home early and good thing my husband calls ahead of time to tell me he is on his way home so that I "prepare" myself. I didn't shower from having sex with the guy and my husband wanted to have sex with me and I couldn't say no. I feel dirty, disgusting and I know I am going to hell, but I love it. I love having sex with my neighbor and I don't think it will stop. Now, I need advice, what do I do? I want to stop but my lady parts won't. This is disgusting but it is true. I am baffled but I mean what advice do you have for me? I can not divorce my husband because there is no way. And I don't know how to stop
Sisters please help me. I know you will judge me but help me first