The Dr is in Love with Puntland

[DR OSMAN]

I can't help myself, but I love Puntland sxb and it's not cause I am majerten. It's the most just society in Somalia that allows freedom of speech and thought and ideas to spread from Hawiye to Rahanwayn to Isaaq right in our door-step and at the same we have a beautiful federal system that is bottom up from tuulo to the top not top down. We build first from small tuulos and get that working and then towns and cities and finally we talk about the top by uniting it all together. We have rules and laws and prison systems for violation of the rules.

We are basically in between Somaliland rigid system and no justice you cant talk in somaliland and mogadishu no system and chaos, we eastern boys are like a middle ground of the best of both worlds. We have the nidaam, we have the justice system, we just lack the leaders and capacity to apply the idea. Kinda similar to somspot, it has a great forum sxb, great idea, great concept, it's a bit somaliaonline where intellectuals come, and a bit of drama queens from somnet. It has rules and systems of applying it like rating posts and reviews by admin on rating post reviews also that is fair unlike somnet which was never fair and the majerten were run out. It's like Puntland they just lack the leadership the idea is perfect, the system is perfect, the leaders suck and their moderators.

Where-as in Somaliland the system sucks niyahow and justice is non-existant, it's a terrible concept, its not about their leaders there, they started badly nimankani niyahow that's why it's miserable place of drug addicts, it's better getting high over there then putting up with the shitty concepts and ideas they built it on. Where-as mogadishu is just chaos and no nidaam and u cant have that shit or else it's like somnet and it become qashin.

 

[Almis Essa]

Are you a real doctor?

 

[DR OSMAN]

Are you a real doctor?

Why are you asking that? No I am not qualified doctor not in any field. I can't be bothered wasting 10 years for it and getting a piece of paper. I just want to grow my knowledge to myself and apply it in my own life and if I am recognized who cares niyahow. Life is centered around me because I am the one here experiencing it, so I need to develop knowledge to navigate it for succcess.

I am just a majerten osman maxamud dhalinyaro nothing else. Got some mental disorders, Work in IT and trying to survive life and it's challenges. Nothing else.

 

[DR OSMAN]

This is me and I don't hide myself. I might update my profile avatar with my picture. Life is to short to hide yourself from others, you only got 80 years on average in life. Use it well, don't sit on your death bed and wonder why you wasted it in insecurities. Besides it's haram I think to have cuqdad about yourself and how god created you, it says you not pleased with allah creation about yourself or he made a mistake. It's satanic. Posting my pic now in avatar to brave myself out because I am rageedi.

 

[Saalax Bidaar]

Why are you asking that? No I am not qualified doctor not in any field. I can't be bothered wasting 10 years for it and getting a piece of paper. I just want to grow my knowledge to myself and apply it in my own life and if I am recognized who cares niyahow. Life is centered around me because I am the one here experiencing it, so I need to develop knowledge to navigate it for succcess.

I am just a majerten osman maxamud dhalinyaro nothing else. Got some mental disorders, Work in IT and trying to survive life and it's challenges. Nothing else.

That is most real thing anyone has ever said here. I salute soldier!!!

 

[Almis Essa]

Why are you asking that? No I am not qualified doctor not in any field. I can't be bothered wasting 10 years for it and getting a piece of paper. I just want to grow my knowledge to myself and apply it in my own life and if I am recognized who cares niyahow. Life is centered around me because I am the one here experiencing it, so I need to develop knowledge to navigate it for succcess.

I am just a majerten osman maxamud dhalinyaro nothing else. Got some mental disorders, Work in IT and trying to survive life and it's challenges. Nothing else.

Nice, I would rate your comment if I could

 

[Cumar]

Why are you asking that? No I am not qualified doctor not in any field. I can't be bothered wasting 10 years for it and getting a piece of paper. I just want to grow my knowledge to myself and apply it in my own life and if I am recognized who cares niyahow. Life is centered around me because I am the one here experiencing it, so I need to develop knowledge to navigate it for succcess.

I am just a majerten osman maxamud dhalinyaro nothing else. Got some mental disorders, Work in IT and trying to survive life and it's challenges. Nothing else.

Real nigga that's wassup.

 

[Abdalla]

Ditoore, I couldn't recognise you. You use to look like barwani, now you look like MAXAMUUD SALEEBAAN

I love Puntland too and I even love Puntlanders more. Even on SSPOT we have the best discussions. We have pro Somaliweyn Puntites, pro sharia puntites, pro secession puntites, you name it, we have it. I even receive dms from girls asking me where they can meet Puntite men,

 

[AarLibaax]

 

[Hybrid]

Why are you asking that? No I am not qualified doctor not in any field. I can't be bothered wasting 10 years for it and getting a piece of paper. I just want to grow my knowledge to myself and apply it in my own life and if I am recognized who cares niyahow. Life is centered around me because I am the one here experiencing it, so I need to develop knowledge to navigate it for succcess.

I am just a majerten osman maxamud dhalinyaro nothing else. Got some mental disorders, Work in IT and trying to survive life and it's challenges. Nothing else.

What types of mental disorders do you have ? I seen you few times in here talking to yourself

 

[Buraanbur911]

What types of mental disorders do you have ? I seen you few times in here talking to yourself

Talking to yourself online is another form of waali too kkkkkk

 

[DR OSMAN]

What types of mental disorders do you have ? I seen you few times in here talking to yourself

They are not quite sure yet. Psychartist says it's anxiety and not primarily psychosis or schizophrenia. He has the idea my anxiety and panic attacks and relationship with the world through negative lenses triggers my schizophrenia. Where-as I saw my psychologist basically the therapist yesterday and he said if you had anxiety I could help but you seem to be prone to psychosis and had all the early symptoms of such disease since I was in my teen and it only got triggered and exploded in the past 3 years when I encountered my first psychotic break from reality.

I was psychotic when I was talking to myself in the forum bro, I don't believe you exist, I am speaking to you but I see a demon on the other side and we are playing a game of how do we keep you here in this psychotic experience and I am playing a game of how do I get out of it and go back to earth and be normal. It's the bridge between reality and lunancy where I GO. I am not completely in lunancy and I am not completely in reality either, I am on a bridge between the two dimensions and I can see both. So I can talk normally for 10 minutes but the next 10 minutes I am lost again in my thought disturbances and observing the shapeshifting creatures and jinns I am seeing.

I fear the day I am no longer on the bridge because you will get stuck in schizophrenia and be permanent basket case because you no longer see reality and if I can get swung to the other side reality through medications and therapy that's the goal really without ever seeing the other dimension of madness.

But I am definitely on the bridge between madness and reality, where-as long-term chronically ill schizophrenia people who do not recover even with medication are no longer on the bridge and have delved right into the madness and therefore you no longer exist to them and they talk to themselves, sing to themselves, harm themselves, or do whatever you do in madness. When u go to madness, it depends on your personality and how u handle it, not all people handle it the same. Some kill themselves, some don't. Some cry and scream, some pick up a knife and start killing. Your only familar with the psycho movie who kills people and think schizophrenia is that. That's only one type of reaction to schizophrenia, there many more. I don't have that type of schizophrenia even though the thoughts do come if I should homicide people or suicide because it's fuckin hard when your there wallahi, you lose hope that u will get out of it and you despair and that's dangerous territory to be on.

 

[Crow]

They are not quite sure yet. Psychartist says it's anxiety and not primarily psychosis or schizophrenia. He has the idea my anxiety and panic attacks and relationship with the world through negative lenses triggers my schizophrenia. Where-as I saw my psychologist basically the therapist yesterday and he said if you had anxiety I could help but you seem to be prone to psychosis and had all the early symptoms of such disease since I was in my teen and it only got triggered and exploded in the past 3 years when I encountered my first psychotic break from reality.

I was psychotic when I was talking to myself in the forum bro, I don't believe you exist, I am speaking to you but I see a demon on the other side and we are playing a game of how do we keep you here in this psychotic experience and I am playing a game of how do I get out of it and go back to earth and be normal. It's the bridge between reality and lunancy where I GO. I am not completely in lunancy and I am not completely in reality either, I am on a bridge between the two dimensions and I can see both. So I can talk normally for 10 minutes but the next 10 minutes I am lost again in my thought disturbances and observing the shapeshifting creatures and jinns I am seeing.

I fear the day I am no longer on the bridge because you will get stuck in schizophrenia and be permanent basket case because you no longer see reality and if I can get swung to the other side reality through medications and therapy that's the goal really without ever seeing the other dimension of madness.

This doesn't seem like something that can be fixed through therapy. It sounds like the chemicals in your brain are out of balance. Has the doctor given you medicine? I know some people with a similar problem and medicine makes them normal.

 

[Hybrid]

They are not quite sure yet. Psychartist says it's anxiety and not primarily psychosis or schizophrenia. He has the idea my anxiety and panic attacks and relationship with the world through negative lenses triggers my schizophrenia. Where-as I saw my psychologist basically the therapist yesterday and he said if you had anxiety I could help but you seem to be prone to psychosis and had all the early symptoms of such disease since I was in my teen and it only got triggered and exploded in the past 3 years when I encountered my first psychotic break from reality.

I was psychotic when I was talking to myself in the forum bro, I don't believe you exist, I am speaking to you but I see a demon on the other side and we are playing a game of how do we keep you here in this psychotic experience and I am playing a game of how do I get out of it and go back to earth and be normal. It's the bridge between reality and lunancy where I GO. I am not completely in lunancy and I am not completely in reality either, I am on a bridge between the two dimensions and I can see both. So I can talk normally for 10 minutes but the next 10 minutes I am lost again in my thought disturbances and observing the shapeshifting creatures and jinns I am seeing.

I fear the day I am no longer on the bridge because you will get stuck in schizophrenia and be permanent basket case because you no longer see reality and if I can get swung to the other side reality through medications and therapy that's the goal really without ever seeing the other dimension of madness.

But I am definitely on the bridge between madness and reality, where-as long-term chronically ill schizophrenia people who do not recover even with medication are no longer on the bridge and have delved right into the madness and therefore you no longer exist to them and they talk to themselves, sing to themselves, harm themselves, or do whatever you do in madness. When u go to madness, it depends on your personality and how u handle it, not all people handle it the same. Some kill themselves, some don't. Some cry and scream, some pick up a knife and start killing. Your only familar with the psycho movie who kills people and think schizophrenia is that. That's only one type of reaction to schizophrenia, there many more. I don't have that type of schizophrenia even though the thoughts do come if I should homicide people or suicide because it's fuckin hard when your there wallahi, you lose hope that u will get out of it and you despair and that's dangerous territory to be on.

hope you get better bro and this thought disorder goes away on its own.

 

[DR OSMAN]

I no longer fear death, I do have fears like phobias around my safety like if you put a gun to me or something but the actual death itself, I don't fear it anymore, it's like going to sleep, it's nothingness and that's better then terrifying imagery, voices, thoughts, and shapeshifting shit in madness.

Madness is hell because if it isn't why am I reacting negatively to it, there is no positive reaction. I am not smiling about it, or in some comfort zone. I am pacing up and down, smoking 40 cigarettes when I am in it thinking of how can I get out of this without living here forever. The devil is plotting on the other side to keep you in here, it's the worst place to be.

You see reality but you see psychosis at the same time, they don't even know this the doctors, that's why I don't trust them on medications if they can't even explain what schizophrenia really is. When I am in psychosis I always pray that god changes my situation and make me see things that are peaceful, soothing, heavenly, and calm but I never get that sxb. The only guaranteed the devil gives you is your either coming to hell or your going back to earth and even earth isn't guaranteed which is why your rushing to just break even with the devil not play this game of I will defeat the devil. You will never defeat the devil as a human being.

I cut my losses anigu a long time ago with the devil, now it's about how do I keep out of his arena and his crazy ass place called madness cause it's never ending cage I am telling you it's infinity and all I saw was what I sowed in life when I was on earth and just had a normal existence. I think it's some sort of preliminary hell to show you that hell really is not some fire sxb but your experiences converted to hellish places or heavenly places and the funny thing is the devil tells you this is just for human beings who are in hell and animals also but they all have hope inside because it's not the final judgement call, time is still ticking that's why they know their may come a time they are released from it. But once a final judgment is reached and u get stuck there forever, you have died and your soul is gone. There is no hope now it's all despair.

The real hell may be a fire but we have temporary hells before we get there. I think atheists are middle ground, they just nothingness and deep sleep because they never believed in god or Satan. So the aim you want in madness is if you can't give me heaven, at least give me the atheist option and put me to sleep so I don't have to experience this anymore.

 

[DR OSMAN]

hope you get better bro and this thought disorder goes away on its own.

Thank you brother, I really appreciate sxb. But the funny thing is when I am psychosis there is always this underlying theme that satan tells me, earth isn't as bad as we make it out to be and it's a very neutral environment where it's not hell and it's not heaven and it's merely a testing ground and I should never give up in life when I am in earth if you can handle hell then earth should be walk in the park is the message give me because your not down minus 0 that's what it's about I think deep down the moral of my psychosis. I went down to -99 I think not even -1 cause that's subtle schizophrenia, it's just the thoughts, then voices come you scale down further -33, then the visuals come, you keep scaling to different hells. One hell is about voices, another visuals, another disturbing thoughts and thought injections. One hell is about the environment or the earth in judgment day scenario with comets in the sky to test your paranoia and values. Wallahi waxaa ka soo yeerayso markad halkas tagtid OH FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK IT'S JUST BEEN SCALED UP TO ANOTHER HELL.

The good thing about the psychosis is at least I know now it's not heaven because my reactions are not heavenly based, so based on my reactions and the terrifying visuals, voices, and disturbed thoughts which sometimes is shared between people in hell, their in your head and sharing your brain with you. So I know what hells look like and I know what earth looks like and that's why I have faith there has to be a heaven and if there isn't wallahi it's better just getting an atheist outcome and going to sleep with no more experiences because it's not worth it.

So pray to god that he open those gates to heaven and everlasting happiness and then cut a deal with god if it's not there heaven, then give me an atheist outcome of nothingness and just dying and entering a zone similar to before you came to this world as a baby. Just never ask for hell sxb, those losers who play satanic songs and praise the devil are nutcases niyahow.

 

[Shaolin23]

Why are you asking that? No I am not qualified doctor not in any field. I can't be bothered wasting 10 years for it and getting a piece of paper. I just want to grow my knowledge to myself and apply it in my own life and if I am recognized who cares niyahow. Life is centered around me because I am the one here experiencing it, so I need to develop knowledge to navigate it for succcess.

I am just a majerten osman maxamud dhalinyaro nothing else. Got some mental disorders, Work in IT and trying to survive life and it's challenges. Nothing else.

I can respect that Doc

 

[DR OSMAN]

You can have a hell sxb just based on smells, my smell became like the keenest smell of all the animals that we know with the best smelling capabilities. I could smell strange odours and the strength of the odour increases. Wallahi I aint joking it is insanity and that can be a real hell for someone as they preoccupy their brain around it and your thoughts are going into some sort back and forth never-ending loop as you try to explain what's happening. That's one hell and it's easier that one. The visual hell is the worst. The thought and voice hell is easier but not as easy as the odour hell, their not tough the schizophrenia people with just voices trust me, I have scaled them all and had it combined sometimes with odours and smells plus visuals and thoughts being injected by tupac and genghis khan.

I am only reiterating sxb what I seen, heard, thought during the process when I was there. I am not there now and after you get preoccupy around it working out what the hell was the message this time, you can barely find a job or recover your life again even if you get out of it cause traumatizes you for a long time.

 

[DR OSMAN]

The only one that I didn't experience in psychosis was taste, my taste was fine. I had swallowing problems and vomitting because I was terrified of the place I was in, when I vomit sxb it's cause I am in despair it's not a physical bodily problem, it's a spiritual problem. I don't trust doctors, if it wasn't for my family being upset, I wouldn't go and see them. Their nonsensical and half the time they don't even believe u which is the hardest part, it's better just not even going to them and using traditional methods for yourself.

I am considering not going back to them, your wasting time and they can't do anything about it anyways cause it's not physical ailment which is what medicine and science deals with physics. This is far more then physical and science doesn't believe in non physical so they can't even work on something they don't even acknowledge exists. Non physical things exist sxb call it invisible call it whatever you want but they do exist and they exist a molecular level all the way to gigantic levels like dark matter.

I am finding my own way sxb with my illness, they can't really help you the doctors because they don't even believe it occurs and consider it just madness or fantasy or just lies for the simple reason they cannot observe it that's what science is about. Observation. Since they can't observe it, they dismiss regardless of all the people who walk in their door saying their experiencing wild shit, they just respond with it's not true and it never happened. f*ck them wallahi, you got me pissed off about these guys again. They call me hard personality of course I will be, how can I trust you my life and health when you don't even acknowledge what I am telling you about what I experienced.

 

[DR OSMAN]

These science guys are dumb and stupid, I am suprised they get graded at high IQ levels when they are the dumbest of them all. How is it they acknowledge dark matter and dark energy in science and physics based on secondary effects because they can't primarily test it since it doesn't exist but can only assess it based on effects that it causes through secondary mechanism.

Isn't secondary mechanism when millions of people walk into your door telling you the same thing about seeing and hearing shit that is crazy, they don't even apply their own methods properly because they don't understand science and just regurgitate shit with no wisdom or application knowledge.