#ANONYMOUSPOST
After losing my first husband to an illness, my one year old daughter and I barely had much since all our money was spent on his medication. I started selling baati to make ends meet, my daughter became my world and we overcame our loss together.
I married my second husband two years later. He was nice, kind and romantic and all those good qualities that as a woman I would appreciate but he couldn't stand my daughter. As a mother, I couldn't stand that! We would always argue about this until it led to our first divorce. After sometime, he come back promising to be a good dad to my daughter and I agreed to give him a second chance.
The morning that my daughter died, I still remember it clearly. I woke up early to buy beer(not qamro) and hilib, a welcome back breakfast for my husband and also to enjoy it together as a family. I was nearing our house when I saw my neighbours screaming and crying holding my daughter breathing her last. She had turned blue, her face swollen, blood all over her clothes. I wouldn't have believed it was my daughter but those women were crying 'gawadhada sumayo weey dimanosaa' . My neighbours told me my daughter was crying loudly when I left and since the door was locked, they went to the window to check what was wrong and saw my husband hold my little girl by her leg and banged her head almost everywhere in our house. He then choked her and strangled her to stop her from screaming but ran away when he saw she could no longer cry and was dying.
He was arrested but his qabil raised money for him and is currently out. He told me I didn't look remorseful after our first divorce so he came back to destroy the thing that was keeping me and him apart. He also gave me the remaining two divorce. In a world that money rules, only Allah can bring me justice. Also, no matter how much I would want to see him rot in prison, the fact that my daughter is gone forever remains. Reality is stranger than fiction so when you are in a difficult situation, only then will you understand why you have to do certain things.
The real problem though, is that I am one month pregnant with this man's child now. I know that I should think of this baby as a replacement of my dead daughter but no matter how I look at it, I can't help but think of it as the baby of my daughter's murderer. I want to abort it. Please tell me your opinions about this baby. Should I keep it or kill it? I also know it is innocent but will it be worth it in the long run?... I have always heard 'Calaf aa lacunaa' but my calaaf right now is one I find too hard to swallow.
Fake.