I did that. The thing about alcohol is, so many times you actually find yourself swimming deeper into your emotions. At least for me. So it was horrible, but I was punishing myself too. I kinda wanted to stay in the misery, bc I didnt know how to deal with it. But that was situational. I eventually dealt with it.
Reminds me of the effect Khaad had on my brother. He was talkative untill he brought the green leafs at home and started chewing. He became withdrawn and would look past you deep in his thoughts. Then he would pull out a notebook and a pen to start adding up sum huge sums of money I had no idea where kept. I asked him about the numbers few times and if he actually had that kinda money somewhere, He would start laughing and tell me "wuu riyoonaya" as in "I am dreaming Big".
Alcohol and drugs have different effects on people for sure. It brings out a side you didn;t know or perpetuates some personality that existed already in moderation to an extreme level.
Alcoholics are honest though. All the secrets held come out. Like that white lady who votes liberal but start cussing and calling us the N word when she got drunk.