Taking ones life is forbidden in Islam.You can still believe that Allah is the sole provider and take away your life due to the trauma you were in, and the fact that you may not have been in the right state of mind.
If someone took away their life after their mother, father, sisters and brothers were all killed in an plane crash, then it's the same thing to the geeljire whose livestock is his life.
Can you bring proof from the Quran or sunna that says otherwise?